Goblins, Goblins!

Hmmm, well, here I am - back in the office again following a 2-day hiatus. Important things to remember:

1) Date with Heather was an utter flop;
2) You've handed in your notice at work - jump or be pushed scenario, wunnit?!
3) Several hours after this your almost-obese 'girlfriend' decided for the 3rd time that she doesn't 'love' you and dumps you...despite the fact that a few days before you dumped her and said you wanted nothing to do with her;
4) You harmed yourself...after several years of not doing it;
5) You had a mental assessment and came out as being 'mediocre';
6) You still curl up in a ball in your bed with your on-off lover/enemy/flatmate;

Crazy much?! Oui, of course it is!

I don't know how to feel. Part of me feels genuinely happy. New horizons and all that - technically the world is my oyster - I've got money; qualifications, friends, family - it's all there. I just hope Fatty Arbuckle doesn't piss on it.

Part of me is probably more scared than anything I've ever had to face before. It'll work out. It has to.

Avalon is back soon. Not sure why I'm writing this. Maybe because she'll bring her slutty thigh-high spiked leather boots and deepthroat me. Hmmm, I bet she gives good head. Think I'll keep in touch with her. Ease the pain n' all that.

That was all a bit Bret Easton Ellis there. Fuck, why am I writing this?!