Also...

It's just Sam and I in the office today. She's wearing a lovely tight-fitting suit and those gorgeous stilettos again. She has a 'dot' chin but it really turns me on. Raven-haired too. Wish we could just shut up office and fuck like rabbits! C'mon, Luke! Think of ways to go downstairs and strike conversation.....

Killing Time

Mmmmm, cheese scones. I thinkn I've had 3 this week - not very healthy :(

Not sure why I'm writing this. Got the office to myself today so I guess I'm trying to take it easy. Facebook, Gmail and Myspace have been blocked in the office now so hopefully it'll give me a much-needed kick up the arse. Shame though...

Haven't really been up to too much this week. Finding some of the editing reasonably tricky at work but still enjoying it. Found out I'm getting over £600 sick pay which was a nice piece of news. Should get me out of the red and into the black. Plus, I get my first paycheque from Webcomm in a week! Just need to get my ISA looking healthy again.

I haven't been to the gym in a while which bugs me. I went for a small jog the other day and I was shattered after a few minutes - not good.

Charlotte and I are ok, I guess. I'm still not sure what to make of it. Nice girl...but maybe her lack of self esteem is going to cause problems. I mean Lianne was timid and quite shy but, behind locked doors, was an animal and had no qualms getting down to business. I know it sounds incredibly superficial but I wish Charlotte would take control a bit more or, failing that, just give me a handjob. Maybe tonight...

Had a nice time at the MoK last night with Mr Smart. Sadly fatty was there with her set of grinning bulldogs. Felt proud though - I didn't look over at her once and blatantly caught her gawping a me a couple of times. She's still looking very meaty! Haha!

Going to buy Tabletennis for the Wii tonight which I'm excited about. Also got my CBT on Sunday...which I hope I'll pass.

Well, I've killed enough time - best get back to work.

Peace xx

ARGHHHH!

I just spoke to her again and I could've sworn she was looking at my crotch! Fuck, fuck, fuck! She's gorgeous....

PANTS!!!

It's official - I'm totally smitten with the financial adviser who works in the office below. I've flirted with her for the past few minutes and had to walk away as I now have a huge erection. Now, that just isn't right - is it?!

She's wearing a red skirt and leather knee boots, for FUCK'S SAKE! Oh man...I hope we don't move from this office. Damnit, damnit, damnit!!!!!!!!

"I went to sleep"

Bored today. Not excessively so - but, meh!

Weekend was pretty good overall. Still slightly worried about Charlotte and I. I'm just not 'feeling it' as much as I thought I'd be. Plus I also told Laura Kitten and Sarah I fancy them both. Plus I've asked Amy out on a date and have a 'thing' for Jo! Nice one, Luca! You'll never learn...

Oh, and I got talking to both Milfs on the ground floor this morning and really like them both. One is married...but I'm not sure if her and her husband are still together. The other isn't. They're both pretty hot and seem to lap it up when I flirt with them :)

Turns out I WILL be getting money for my recent 'illness' which is reassuring. Oh, and the Citizens Advice Bureau are helping me get my deposit back. First thing I'll do when I get the money back is text Jane and brag about it - mad old bitch! As if someone of her age or stature needs my money. Whores - all of those Drummond-Hague's are filthy whores.

Not got too much else to say. My crash helmet arrived. I got Charlie those awesome leather opera gloves. England beat France in the Rugby....and I got drunk on wine. Errr, that's about it....

x

"It's been a long time..."

Well, well, well....what's it going to be then, eh?

I can't remember the last time I jotted something down on here. Probably when I was in a darker place.

May as well do a round-up.

So - the last 3 months: CRAZY. Not good-crazy, either. Left the flat and Julia behind which, in all fairness, I really don't miss. The flat had great potential but went to waste. Not my fault. Realised that I do indeed abhor Julia more than anyone else in the world. Sorry for the childish hyperbole...but it's true. Her mum can go fuck herself, too. Wasters.

I was headhunted quite a while ago for a small magazine publishing house in Lenham. I've been here 2 weeks now and it's a great job. Sure the money could be better but it's a rise from (shitty) Grub Street. Best thing I did this year was leave that shithole. My new bosses are nice people and I honestly think that I'll go far if I stay here. Plus, we're above an estate agents and 2 of perhaps the sexiest MILFs work there. Fuck, I know I shouldn't - but I keep tormenting myself with thoughts of them. They're both so slim...and always wear suits and those gorgeous pointed-toe stiletto boots. Gonna try and have a crack.

Ok, I'm away of how bad I just sounded but I also got with Charlotte - a girl I've been chasing for a few months. It's going well but, in some ways, I'm not feeling as content as I thought I would. She's a good laugh...and a geek...and the sex is good but I'm not totally 'feeling it'. I'm buying her some soft black leather opera gloves today so hopefully she can jerk me off all night in them.

Oh, I got an old Vespa not long ago and have got my test in just over a week. Bit scared about hitting the open road but it'll be fun.

Still on medication which isn't great. Also, I've slipped up on the chooch front a few times which has lead to some nasty experiences and hallucinations. I read up about HPPD and keep worrying that I've fried my brain a bit too much in the last couple of years.

Oh, Penny and I are talking again after a 2 year hiatus. It's nice, I guess.

Peace out! x