Eurgh! Feeling so disorientated today. I swear it’s because I smoke. Mustn’t complain; I’ve had a reasonably good day. Still hacked off that I seem perpetually lethargic despite getting an average of seven hours sleep a night. My head feels so heavy…
It’s been an odd few weeks without Karla. Never thought I’d miss her this much so soon. I guess it’s the security and comfort she offers me. Plus sleeping on my own isn’t much fun. Can’t wait until she’s back. I miss the intimacy, too!
Not much has happened with the band because of Easter and personal issues with Ty. Shame really. I think we really could go somewhere. Going into the rehearsal rooms was superb – even though I had too much to drink but it’s all coming together quite nicely.
Still haven’t been back to Kent and, to be fair, I’ve no interest. I mean; what is there back home? Family – granted – oh, and a few friends. And by friends I mean genuine friends. 2007 was still such an eye-opener for me. I’m not sure I’ve recovered from it by a long shot. Maybe I was naive to think I’d move back to Leicester and everything would magically alter for the better. I mean, in many ways life is great – good job, band, Karla, friends, my own place…but my mind is probably still a little fried and fragile from taking far too many knocks last year. I decided to sever contact with certain people. Probably because I’m bitter but it had to be done. F**k people like Jodie and that whole inbred clique of people. I guess I was never ‘in there’ in the first instance but they have an incredibly annoying hive mentality and I don’t see them going anywhere in the lives/careers. They’re happy to go to the pub and do the same boring things week in-week out. Oh, and fuck that little shit, Neil Swan. What a cunt…
Well, home-time for me. Not sure what to do this evening. My flat needs a thorough clean but I’ve neither the time nor energy to do it. Maybe just dinner and a DVD. Zzzzzz…
